What Should You Do With The Rest of Your Life

How does someone know what they want to do with their life? I'm not sure how many people ask that question while in high school and shit. Like, where do you even go from there? Where does life WANT you to go? I really wish I knew the answer. It's probably more valuable than gold. Oh you know where you want your life to go? Lucky fucking you! Lucky fucking you you selfish asshole. How the fuck did you fucking figure it out? Tell me your fucking secrets. I want to know. I'm fucking jealous. More than anything, I wish you had an idea. Can you give me a sliver of hope? Can you be my shining beacon. Maybe I put too much into you, and I shouldn't be. Is it taking a toll on me? Is it taking a toll on my life? But what is life? Is it a glimpse of faith and love? Eternal love, that can never be broken. Where is the love? Oh where is the fucking love? Is it stuck in this rut I'm in. can I dig all the way to the bottom? And if I do, will there be a light at the end of the tunnel? I don't want to dig myself into oblivion, but sometimes it feels like I am doing just that. I keep digging, and digging, and digging, and I feel like im ending up no where. I have a lot of things in my life; a great boyfriend, a good head on my shoulders. I'm just a little lazy. I sit here everyday just like it was Kent. Except what is failing me now? I'm not smoking weed like I used to. Everything is different, yet it is so much the same. I try and find that beacon, but all I can see is the blackness that surrounds. It's so dark in here. Can someone please turn on a light? Show me how beautiful the stars can be. Show me the beautiful glow of the moon so I can see my way through the grass. I feel and think many things at once, does that make me crazy? I have released Kundahlini through my body; channeling each and every one of my chakras. I have felt love, and loss. What else is left to feel? Is there a list of things? Research and learning, every single day is what I have always continued to do. Theory after theory. Scientist and psychologists alike. Priests, telepathics, tv anchors, debaters, senators, spiritualists, is it all the same? What do we do about the stock market? How do we manage to live our lives under a Federal reserve paper? That is probably one of the stupidest things I have ever heard of in my life. This life, this world is so dumb, I get depressed just thinking about it. How people can be so fucking mean. Where do I go from here? ..........................................................................................

I saw the 2nd Zeitgeist. If so many people have seen that fucking movie, why isn't anything being done about our world? We all know that it can be way better than it is right now. Just do the fucking research. I know I have. Everything is there, ripe for the taking. I guess you just need to know which tree to pick. And coming back to my point, what fucking tree is the right pick? Which pick unveils the golden secret? The Ultimate of ultimates. Does it even exist in this language? Will the people that need to read this even understand it. Who knows..............